Monday, February 05, 2007

It's not as good as it sounds

Insomnia, that is. If you've ever said "I'll sleep when I'm dead" or "I could get so much more done it I didn't have to sleep"'re kidding yourself. Sure, it sounds great to have 22 hours in a day instead of 16 or so, but let me tell you, having 16 usable hours is much better than 22 hazy hours.

What is this all about?

I've had insomnia since just before Christmas. Over the past month or so, I've celebrated the handful of days were I've managed to get 4 to 6 hours of sleep. I really need 8 to function, and I'm partial to 9...but in the past weeks I've averaged 2 a night, and that has typically been interrupted. Laying in the dark, staring at the walls gets very old, very fast. Many times I get back up after a few hours of waiting on sleep, and I try to work or read, but just because I can't sleep doesn't mean I'm not tired--that deep ache behind the eyes tired. I feel like I'm walking dead in a thick haze more than half the time.

But, I didn't mean to go on and on about insomnia. I meant to apologize for the scarcity of posts recently. The insomnia aside, things have been terribly hectic and I've hardly been home or near my computer recently. Not all the craziness has been bad--I went to my local chapter meeting this weekend and had a great time--but in the last week I've been juggling an unreliable car that we finally decided to trade in while it still had some bluebook value, a lease on the apartment that we had to fight tooth and nail to get in our name and renewed (long story, but I started packing boxes because it got so close) and of course the craziness of a new car and insurance and stuff. When I have been at my computer, I've been spending ungodly amounts of time on my email because 1) I just got added to my chapter loop, 2) I'm moderating an online workshop, and 3) I'm taking an online workshop. I also agreed to help my brother write the storyline for a game he is designing (and trust me, don't let a group of engineers write a story... well, this group at least) In between all of that, I've been writing, so blogging kind of fell to the bottom of the priority pile. Hopefully things are finally calming down. I know I have at least one more trip back to the dealership (another long story) but the apartment situation is finally taken care of. The email thing won't be that scary if I'm actually around to you know, check it more than once a day.

Really, I don't know how I finished anything back when I worked full time. And I really don't know how writers like Rachel Caine work full time and write two or more books in a year. It's amazing. Maybe its practice. I can only hope I'll pick up the skill if I work at it. (Though I swear I'm struggling with my current WIP more than my last.)

Okay, writing progress:
Zokutou word meterZokutou word meter
56,465 / 95,000

I didn't make my 60k last week (obviously. I was short by like 4k... a long way off.) So, I plan to make up my deficit, and still write my 10 for the week to end at 70k. My over all goal is to finish CD by the 23rd because that day marks a quarter of a century I will have been breathing air. I can't control if DH sells by then, but I can plan to finish the first draft of CD.

I'd say 'wish me luck,' but I don't need luck, I need to keep my butt in my chair, and maybe some sleep.


Rachel Vincent said...

Oh, I'm so sorry about your insomnia! That sounds so miserable.

Please, don't worry about what I asked you. Seriously. I can figure it out, and you sound like you just need rest. And I'm wishing you the best of luck with DH anyway, because sometimes there is a bit of luck involved with finding the right publisher. ;-)

Kalayna-Nicole Price said...

Thanks for the luck Rachel. As for what you asked, I'll enjoy the challenge, it will just take me a few days to get to it.